A slightly calmer reflection
I didn’t fail the medical assessment yesterday although I was told that I had. He was not allowed to fail me as I had done exactly the right thing by passing the offending “epipen” onto someone who was trained to use it and in fact had I used it without training that would have been a more serious issue. So I only failed the trauma after all. Which I wouldn’t have failed if I wasn’t so angry/upset about failing the medical one.
In a spirit of reflective learning…..
I am a perfectly able and competent ambi aider. I am more than able to do the “job” and neither of the assessments should have given me a moments trouble. What I have a problem with is managing myself. I need to learn to deal with failure/anger/upset better. I need to be able to ignore prats when they go out to “push buttons”, wind me up etc or if not ignore it to say “f it” and move on. I have no idea sadly how to even start to deal with that. But I need to work it out before the end of November when I re-sit.
Well, that is a good thing.
I don’t know about that either. He’s me shouting at dentists, i don’t have any legs to stand on.
Comment by Merry — October 25, 2005 @ 9:24 am
I find ranting at them inside my head whilst projecting an air of “You know best” works. I still very anxious/annoyed/stressed but they don’t know I am and therefore the button pressing has failed. If only I could learn to do the same with the children, *their* buttons pressing works just fine!
Comment by Sally — October 25, 2005 @ 12:26 pm